Journey Update



I found this picture appropriate for my update post. Many things have happened to me, both good and the perceived bad.

I’ll start with March. In March, my grandmother passed away. It was a weird time for me. Though I loved her,  we were not close. Mainly because I’m a bit of a loner and also because of religious differences. It’s hard to be around anyone and not be able to be yourself.  I didn’t attend her funeral due to being on bed rest. A week prior I had become very ill due to pcos issues. So I feel bad for not saying goodbye. Yet, if she knew me, she would have rejected me. So this was weighing on my heart.

April, I decided I was going to start running.  I enjoyed the freedom of it. Not to mention it’s liberating. After a few weeks I injured my knee. So I took a break. I mainly focused on writing and tried to get back to painting.  Needless to say, I’m nearly done with my poetry book and I plan to publish it on smashwords. So look for it in the future. Oh yeah, did I mention Skye had a litter of pups. They’re the cutest little pups.

May was going great til one morning I awoke with chest pains. I thought I was having a heart attack. I was admitted to the hospital, though my heart was completely healthy. So doctors spent 4 days trying to figure out why I was having pain. Due to my allergies they couldn’t perform certain tests. So finally, they figure out that my blood is overly thick and clotting badly. So I was given injections. Which honestly helped tremendously. They didn’t figure out what was causing my blood to clot. I’m now on blood thinners til, well forever I guess. I will be seeing a specialist soon, so hopefully he’ll figure it out. So may was my second near death experience. I never realized how much I wanted to live til I almost died. So this experience gave me a new outlook on life and it’s value. It was also humbling.

In June and July,  I actually spent most of my time in silence, reflecting, and clearing away negativity. It was refreshing. I also went back to the basics spiritually. I mainly read books by Pema Chödrön and the teachings of Buddha. This helped me in so many ways. It especially helped me to heal from past tragedies.

Is it funny that I don’t remember what I did last month? I think it was day by day of nothingness.

My point of posting all of this is because in the last several months I have gotten to know me much better. I’ve been in awe of life and it’s many wonders. I’ve grown to appreciate my hard times and to keep on celebrating regardless. So I’m in a good place. I’m at peace with myself.

Week 1 Juice Fast Updates


Day 1, Feeling a little tired, and I’ve been living in the bathroom. I didn’t know I had so much fluid on me. Other than that, feeling fine. No cravings yet.

Day 2, Feeling oddly light. No cravings and I noticed today that the smell of food made me feel somewhat nauseous. Feeling pretty good today. I even did an hour of Zumba.

Day 3, Feeling amazing. I have so much energy it’s crazy. I’ve been bouncing off the walls. I spent most of the day outside running around with my pups. I don’t feel any hunger pains and still no cravings. I’m thinking I can accomplish a 100 day fast versus my 90 day fast plan. There’s no stopping me now.

Day 4 of my now increased 100 day juice fast…Whoot. I feel absolutely amazing and I’m down 11 lbs so far. YaY…and I did zumba today, no aches, no pain just feeling AWESOME!! — feeling perfect.

Day 5, I have zero appetite, no cravings, and energy. I’ve never had a point in my life where I didn’t want food, but now the appeal is lost to me. I’m currently forcing myself to drink more juice, because now there is no hunger. This process has caused me to reflect more deeply on so many things . So I’m grateful for this journey. I know my body is even more so grateful. — feeling peaceful.

Day 6, still no appetite, and feeling great.I think I might have fractured a toe, not sure how though. I made a pain elixir from 1 lemon, garlic,and ginger. After 30 minutes my foot completely stopped hurting , so I did my usual workout. Beware, this juice concoction tastes horrid, but it’s great for pain. I drunk about an ounce. Other than that I’ve had nothing but water. I’m down an amazing 15 lbs total. I can now fit into my old jeans comfortably without unbuttoning them:) Also notice my face is looking slimmer, and my skin is glowing. — feeling super.

Day 7, still no appetite and lots of energy. I also noticed my hearing and vision has improved. Everything seemed loud today…lol. So by the end of this fast I will need new glasses, and new clothes. I’m feeling great. Today I drunk water with lemon only. I had one craving and that was for a kale salad…lol. It went away after my walk though. So I’m still going strong and no looking back. Feeling amazing and blessed. — feeling amazing.