Monthly Archives: August 2012

No Water, No Moon by Osho



I recently (as in last night) started reading No Water, No Moon by Osho, and this book is simply amazing. So I decided to share some of it’s wisdom with you all. Here’s the excerpt I read that convinced me to read this  :

Are you not tired enough with the mind? Then retire! Has not the mind done enough? Has the mind not created enough chaos in you? Why are you clinging to it? What hope, what promise, makes you cling to it? It has been deceiving you continuously. It said, “There – that goal, in that possession, in that house, in that car, in that woman, in those riches – is everything.” And you moved, and when you reached, nothing came into your hands except frustration. Every expectation led you to frustration. Every desire became in the end a sorry affair, a sadness resulted.

And this mind has been promising you and promising you – no promise has been fulfilled, but you  never say to the mind, “You deceiver, stop!” You are afraid of  saying that.

Once it happened…

Mulla Nasruddin came out of the  village tavern, and the new priest saw him – he was passing by on the road. The new priest said, “Nasruddin, you are a religious  man. What do I see? You are coming out of such a place? My son, drink is of the Devil. And when the Devil invites you again, refuse. Why don’t you refuse?”

Nasruddin said, “Reverend, I would like to refuse, but the Devil may get sore and may not invite me again.”

That’s the problem. You would like to refuse this mind; this mind has never fulfilled anything,but you are afraid – the mind may get sore, will not promise you again. Then…? You cannot live without promises, you cannot  live without hope –this is the mechanism.

Unless you are ready to live  without hope, you cannot become  religious. Even your so-called religions are nothing but hopes created by the mind. Are you ready to live without hope? Are you ready to live without the future? Then simply there is no need to retire; the mind retires itself. Then there is no clinging with the mind. But you are afraid – the mind may get sore. And the mind is the Devil and may not offer again, then what will you do?

People come to me, they think their search is religious – their search is still mental. They are still moving in the dark valleys of the mind, they are still listening to the mind, they are hoping. They have hoped through money, and they have failed; they have hoped through sex, they have failed. They have hoped in many, many ways, and they have failed. Now they hope through meditation, now they hope through a master, but the hoping is there. And remember well: ifyou hope through me, you will miss me. I cannot fulfill your hopes.

Why not leave hoping? Why do you hope? What is the basis of it? Discontent becomes hope; this is the disguise – because here and now you are so much in discontent, so much in misery, that you need  some hope in the future. That hope will help you to move. You can somehow tolerate the present; through hoping, you can tolerate the present; hope is anesthesia. The present is miserable, painful; hope is alcoholic, it is a drug, it makes you unconscious enough so you can tolerate the present.

Hope means here and now there is discontent. But have you ever looked at the whole phenomenon? Why are you discontented here and now in the first place? Why? – because you hoped in the past, that’s why here and now you are in  discontent. This today was tomorrow yesterday. Yesterday you hoped for today because it was  tomorrow then. Now that hope is not fulfilled, so you are in misery, frustrated. And to hide this misery, to somehow pass today, you are again hoping for the tomorrow.

You are in a rut, and in such a rut that it will be very difficult to come out of it. Tomorrow the same will happen: you will be frustrated because mind can promise but can never fulfill. Otherwise, there was no need for meditation; then Buddha was a fool meditating.

If mind can fulfill, then all meditators are foolish, then all enlightened persons are fools because mind cannot fulfill. When  they come to understand the whole mechanism and the whole misery of it… This is the mechanism: yesterday mind promised you that something is going to be delivered to you tomorrow. Now the tomorrow has come, it is today, and the mind has not delivered. You are in misery, your expectations are frustrated. Now the mind says, “Tomorrow I am going to deliver.” The mind again promises. And what type of  stupidity is this, that you again listen to the mind? And tomorrow the same mechanism will be repeated – it is a vicious circle.

You listen to the mind, you become miserable, otherwise, this today is paradise! And there is no other paradise, this today is nirvana. If you had not listened to the mind… Just don’t listen to the mind, then you are not in misery because misery cannot exist without expectations and without hopes. And when misery exists you need more hopes for it, to hide it, to live  somehow. Live hopelessly – then  you are a religious man, then you are retired.”

This excerpt truly got me thinking about hope and what it truly means. Hoping for things and wishful thinking have become a norm in my life. So this book pointed me back the present…the here and now. I’m only on chapter 3, but already I have found myself crying. Looking at the woman in the mirror is always so unsettling, but it is something I must do. I highly recommend this book if you are on a path of self discovery or even if you’re simply looking for ways to improve your life.


How to overcome ANYTHING


To Be Aware

Hi all,

Just a few days ago, one of the readers of my last post about insecurity asked me to talk about the way out, meaning how to overcome insecurity. So, in this post I’m talking about the way out of anything, not only of insecurity.

Hope you enjoy it 🙂

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Ok, so I’m sitting here, wide awake at 3:40am crying. Why am I crying? Hmmm…the realization that I’ve spent my entire life chasing love. Well since the demise of my 4 year relationship I’ve thought about why it had to end. Initially I was thinking it’s me, I’m unlovable because I’m such a broken person. Then today…well 20 minutes ago, I realize I enabled the nonsense that was my relationship. I was silent when I should have spoken up. I don’t blame him for taking advantage of my insecurities. In every relationship I’ve comprised my being,my happiness,my heart and ultimately my soul. At the time I thought I was just being normal and accepting them as they are. Now I know differently. I was afraid. Afraid of causing strife and arguments. All of this makes me even more aware that being alone is best for me. Maybe I am simply not good for anyone and love is simply not in the cards. Either way I see a future of aloneness. I was joking with a friend recently saying I should become a buddhist nun, well now after reflecting on this statement, maybe that’s not a bad idea. It is something I will research.

Anyways, in the next couple months I plan to move and start life over after my European vacation. Now, I am even more certain I will spend sometime globe trotting and writing. Hopefully I’ll be able to buy my dream home and meet some new interesting people in the process of my transformation.





One of my facebook friends shared this photo today. It got me thinking about non-duality and oneness. It’s an image of Shiva and Shakti as one. This image has been stuck in my head because it reminds me of my own journey of finding harmony within and without. The balance that is illustrated is astonishing to me. How does one obtain such balance? Is it possible for me to be so harmonious? These are the questions that popped in my head. Then the very next image that was shared was this


This is an image of Shiva as Nataraja. He is dancing. The very short and uneducated version…ie my understanding…He is dancing to destroy the darkness that is ignorance and the like. Also at the same time He is creating. So I found this yet again profound. Even in destruction there is harmony and balance. So as I reflect upon myself I see there is no harmony within. I’m always going from one extreme to the next. I need this dance in my life. I need the harmony that Shiva and Shakti have. All of this thinking inevitably guided me to one thought…the purpose of life. If the purpose for living is to wake up and realize we are one in love…in silence. That there is a single heartbeat of creation. Then I am on the outside of this heartbeat. How can I be apart of the whole when I am such a divided person? In my heart I know my truths, it is my mind which has the problem. It doesn’t want to cooperate. It’s always fighting one way or another. Honestly, if my mind were to stop fighting I wouldn’t know what to do. I wonder if this is apart of capricorn nature. Nonetheless, I will continue to persevere because I know that eventually this too shall pass.



1) Life is far beyond meaning, Life is beyond meaning and that’s why it is so beautiful

2) When you wanting to know some thing is so Intense that you are willing to die for it, then knowing is not far away.

3)If you are rooted in reality there will be no fear.

4)Intelligence is like a flashlight. If you flash it, it’ll just show you what’s in front. Knowledge is like a projector; if you switch it on, it projects its own story. Now, if you came with a flashlight and you flash it on these paintings here, you will see the paintings just the way they are. If you came with the projector, which also has light in it, and you turned it on; you don’t see the paintings. You will see something else, maybe Jackie Chan fighting. That’s the difference between knowledge and intelligence.

5)Religions of the…

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Living in the NOW and Dropping Ego



So here lately, I’ve been truly focused on living in the present. I never realized how much my mind wonders everywhere except the present. I guess you could call this an experiment. I wanted to see what I was clinging to subconciously. Apparently, I’m a serious clinger. I realized that by keeping myself busy, I was avoiding dealing with my issues. I was rushing ahead to the future and trying to plan out my next year. Then it hit me, why am I rushing and so focused on tomorrow? My guess, yet another projection of the mind that it’s important. What I mean is, it was all a lie. My motives were not well placed. So I decided to slow down to snail pace and just listen.

In the process of my slowdown a friend shared with me 2 Mooji videos, which I blogged separately below. They truly helped me. I was losing sight of my path. Somehow, I started longing for something more than what I percieved I needed. Turns out this too, was a lie. Well I think I finally got near to the root as to why my relationships fail. Its the projections. I don’t think I truly get to know people. I meet their facade, then mix it with my projection, and hocus pocus here’s the new love of my life…lol. Also throw in some fear for good measure. Then I regret it or continuously try to fix the person because they don’t measure up to my ideal…also known as illusion.

So as I strive to get to know me more and more daily I realize how complex and insane I am. Why do I have to be so complicated, and what purpose does it serve? I think these are all the minds games. I don’t have to be any of these things. It goes back to choices. I’ve been running on auto pilot for years, and now I want to control my path and destination. I want to live in Blissland…lol.  So how is that possible? Well first, no more auto pilot. Secondly, no more self delusion. Third, slow down…simplicity. Fourth, drop desire and attachments. I saved the hardest for last. Desire and attachments, this is what creates so much suffering. I don’t want to suffer anymore. So I have to find away to be conscious and aware 24/7 vs falling for maya. Needless to say many lessons have been learned over the last few days. I have an ego problem. I need a ego anoymous group meeting to attend…lol. The journey continues and I’m sure as time passes I will grow into a more aware individual. Til then I will continue to use my time studying,praying,chanting,meditating, writing and of course enjoying my kitties;-)